Life = Difficult

wo zhi dao~~~

2009-06-13T15:07:00.001+08:00

詞曲：于萱
music: yu xuan
我知道- by2
i know - by2
從來沒想過
cong lai mei xiang guo
不能再和你牽手
bu neng zai he ni qian shou
委屈時候沒有你
wei qu shi hou mei you ni
陪著我心痛
pei zhu wo xin tong
一切都是我
yi qie dou shi wo
太過驕縱
tai guo jiao zong
以為你會懂
yi wei ni hui dong
一直忘了說
yi zhi wang le shuo
我有多感動
wo you duo gan dong

我知道你還是愛著我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
雖然分開的理由
sui ran, fen kai de li you
我們都已接受
wo men dou yi jie shou
你知道我會有多難過
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
所以即使到最後
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou
還微笑著要我加油
hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you

我知道你還放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
才會在離開時
cai hui zai li kai shi
閉著眼沒有回頭
bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
我們都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
其實這份愛沒停過
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo

從來沒想過
cong lai mei xiang guo
不能再和你牽手
bu neng zai he ni qian shou
委屈時候沒有你
wei qu shi hou mei you ni
陪著我心痛
pei zhu wo xin tong
一切都是我
yi qie dou shi wo
太過驕縱
tai guo jiao zong
以為你會懂
yi wei ni hui dong
一直忘了說
yi zhi wang le shuo
我有多感動
wo you duo gan dong

我知道你還是愛著我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
雖然分開的理由
sui ran, fen kai de li you
我們都已接受
wo men dou yi jie shou
你知道我會有多難過
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
所以即使到最後
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou
還微笑著要我加油
hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you

我知道你還放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
才會在離開時
cai hui zai li kai shi
閉著眼沒有回頭
bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
我們都知道彼此心中
wo men dou zhi dao bi ci xin zhong
其實這份愛沒停過
qi shi zhe fen ai mei ting guo

曾經完整幸福的夢
ceng jing wan zheng xing fu de meng
在腦海裡頭
zai mao hai li tou
我多希望你
wo duo xi wang ni
還在我左右
hai zai wo zuo you

我知道你還是愛著我
wo zhi dao ni hai shi ai zhe wo
雖然分開的理由
sui ran, fen kai de li you
我們都已接受
wo men dou yi jie shou
你知道我會有多難過
ni zhi dao wo hui you duo nan guo
所以即使到最後
suo yi ji shi dao zui hou
還微笑著要我加油
hai wei xiao zhu yao wo jia you

我知道你還放不下我
wo zhi dao ni hai fang bu xia wo
才會在離開時
cai hui zai li kai shi
閉著眼沒有回頭
bi zhe yan mei you hui tou
答應你我會好好過
da ying ni wo hui hao hao guo
不讓這些眼淚白流你牽手
bu rang zhe xie yan lei bai liu

A real nice song..
especially the lyric..
is just so nice..x.x

Keep Keep running!

2009-06-09T11:55:00.002+08:00

Keep running!!!!

If you ever stop..means you are giving up your entire life!!

Life is NEVER easy!!

To experience any triumph ,you have to face some tests..

Each test will be harder as the clock ticks..

But never be afraid..

These test eventually will stack up ur courage, patience and determination bit by bit..

Thus, you will be a real successful person with a condition of never hide yourself when given a test..

I believe you can find your brightness of life as you run..

Life is not about girlfriend or boyfriend alone..

You do have your parents ,siblings and your future..

Try to think of the person who cares you!

Don't ever make them sad especially your parents..

They are the ones sho cares you the most..

Try to control your feelings..

Don't give up your future with the measurement of exam grades..

It wouldn't represent that you are a loser when scoring a bad result in examination ..

Most of the successful person don't score good result in examination..

All they have in themselves are good attitude like

determine, patience , brave and never breath a word of "give up" when they fall..

Everytime they fall..the word "try again" will be the word that they will say..

You shall be brave to face all the obstacles..

Never compare yourself with others..

just keep on improving yourself is what you shall do..

Never say "finish" as you haven't reach the finishing line..

Fight till the last breath of yours!!!

I believe you can do it..

I hope you could change your mindset ..

to the other side..

to think for others...

As for her..

Success is vital also..

She may not reach success..yet she will try her best..

Chances have been given to you..

She can't change as this is who she is..

between..this mindset is not a wrong thinking as well..

Love a person..

isn't seeing her to be happy?

isn't hoping her to be success?

If you care so much of the differences..

you should not love her at the first place..

and you are loving her in a wrong way!!!!!!!!!!!!

Try to expose your mind!!!

Love shall never be selfish..

and is all fated..

Between...your life is not nothing..

this is just what you are thinking..

Actually your life is wonderful..

you have a complete family..

unlike the other orphans who thirst for family love..

You shall be feeling lucky

as you are well bornt also..

unlike others who are handicapped

Your life is so wonderful..

and it were all gifted by GOD..

why can't you appreciate it?

why don't give a damn on all these things?

Why are you moaning your life yet no improvement are to be done???

Only you can help yourself..

the past shall be the past..

No point regreting on how naive you are

to sacrifice all your things cause of her!!!!

No point ,pointing fingers at each others..

Can't you just try to improve your life??

Even it can't reach the top level..at least it wouldn't be stuck at the lowest level...

You are big enough to think yourself..

Try to think in a mature way..

Love a person..isn't like how you are loving now..

I hope you can make up your mind soon!

Ush Ush Ush~!^^

2009-06-09T11:45:00.002+08:00

Keep going!!!!

Keep Keep Going!!!

Never look back!!

Loads of work awaiting me to accomplish..

The key to enter my future,shall never be lost by me..

I shall never let all the obstacles

To make me fall..

To make my faith dissappear..

Cause 100% of faith given..

I should have appreciate it..

Work hard for the future...

I know I can do it!!!

Ush Ush Ush~~!!!

Filled each day with a smile..=)

2009-04-22T16:54:00.002+08:00

Roaming over the beautiful beach..
Shouted..
Screamed..
Yelled..
end up exhausted..xd
Finally..can feel the word "relief"..^^

I have to be happy..
in other words,there shouldn't be any dot
that play a role of creating a max curve..
as breathing in this world..
we shouldn't have..
drawing a max curve as a habit..

Having to know you..
is equal to a lucky charm presented by God to me..

Don't be so listless..
Don't be so emo..

Frankly,you did created lots of colourful moments in my life..
Neither should you blame yourself nor should you be feeling useless..
Life is full of fun and joy..
I have never blame you for anything as I know you have actually tried your best..
Trying your best..meaning giving your best..
Indirectly,it actually contains full marks..

Never give up in anything you do..
No one on earth is known as a loser..
As long as you give your best..
You are a winner..

Don't be afraid to face the future..
Don't hide yourself from reality..

Gain all your courage up..
and go on step by step..
Never bother..
how strong the wind will be..
how scary the thunder sounds..
how tough the road is..
I believe with a determined heart..
you could actually go through all this..

Family is always there for you..
Friends of course are not excluded..
They are the supporter who cheer for you..
as you run the race of your life..
Never care those friends who look down on people..
They supposed not to be known as HUMAN~!!

Having a great mind..
Holding a high post..
Is this means the person under them
are all dumb and shouldn't be respected ?

Achieving high grades..
musn't actually possess a great future..
On the contrary,Attitude plays a more vital role..

THANKS for everything that you have done..
ALL THE BEST to you in future..
Be TOUGH ya~!
Never raise a white flag before reaching a finishing line..
I will always be your supporter..
With the decision that we have agreed to,
maybe we would have more space in our mind..
Instead of thinking so much,
Let's work hard together and achieve the best result..
It's still not too late if we would to start now..!!!
so, Gambatte ya~!

Be brave on facing the road ahead of me

2009-04-20T16:06:00.003+08:00

I finally realised
From now on...
The road ahead of me...
Must be completed by myself..
No one will be there for me....
No one can help me ...

The place I had left..
Shall let all be the past..
Never to depend on any other..
NEVER~!!!!!!!

Road in front of me...
I could sense the heat of the challenges..
No matter how much tears trickled down my cheeks..
I shall be TOUGH to face it all ALONE~!!

Let GOD decide the pathway of my life...
I don't wanna think anymore~!!!!!!!
No USE to regret ...
Just get on with my LIFE~!!!
YAN~!!!!
STOP thinking of all those NONSENSE~!

BE DETERMINED~!!
the obstacles..
that cut my body...
never should I be afraid of...
Once I'm still breathing..
I SHALL not give up!!!!!!

KEEP ON GOING~!!!
When there's a will,there will always be a way..!

SMILE~!

2009-04-19T12:56:00.003+08:00

Ultimately,I can sense the word fading...

The word cannot be as clear as last time anymore..

The past has been locked..

in a very secure place..

Having the chance to carve the tree..

Never have I feel regret..

On the contrary,I feel lucky of it...

Looking at the sky..

I can sense..the dark cloud going away..

Creating a clear blue sky..

Never have my feet step to anywhere near it..

from now...

till it completely don't have the sign of me..

will make the word easier to fade..

A BIG THANK YOU..

The last sentence I would like to carve on it..

A wish...

that the sunshine will give it a smile..

Shines of the sun will eventually shower it with lots of love & care..

Hoping it never be under a cloudy sky

2009-04-09T16:27:00.002+08:00

The word carved on tree..

the date..

the month..

the year..

Thought it will be going to dissapear..

when moving my feet away

from where it stands..

Moving away without taking a glimpse of it..

A clear blue sky has turned to a dark cloudy one..

The moments of fun and joy at that place..

will be locked..

shall never look back..

shall never regret..

shall never turn back to carve it anymore..

Remembering the moments..

can cause a min curve at face each time..

Having the chance to carve the tree..

with secrets and trust..

that created a stunned look at me..

Astouned for a moment..

at the instant when I know the words are still there..

Maybe it is not as clear as last time..

I guess..the words will eventually fade as time passed..

Nothing will last forever..

Not even a memory..

Maybe just a piece of screed from me here..

that will keep all this forever..

Hoping resilience will help it to make the words fade...

so that it will Never be under a dark cloudy sky anymore..

Long Live The Rain~!=]

2009-04-09T15:55:00.003+08:00

Rained cats and dogs this morning..

I was roused from sleep by the thunder..

Looking at my clock..

It was just 5 something in the morning..

I tried to sleep back but could not..

And so, I drifted around my house..

ending up surfing the net..XD

Today is my school annual sport day..

Went to school with a hope that the rain will not stop..

and guess what?

The rain DID NOT STOP eventhough the bell rang..^^

As a result, it is postponed to next tuesday..

However, next tuesday..we wouldn't be going back early..

Lessons will be going on after the sports day..

WE will still be having ADD MATHS lesson!!!T.T

This decision..turns all the colistrians' mood from gay to sombre...

*sigh*

what a day~!!

Whole day in class...

crap crap crap...

and went on with add maths lesson for a little while..

Crap till 12.30 pm today..

and went back home..

Besides,tomorrow is a holiday as it is good friday!!

That's all about my school life for today..

Clock ticks

2009-04-07T18:43:00.002+08:00

What is life all about?
Everyday of mine is kind of blank ..
It seem to be a daily routine i should say..

I started to be groggy lately..
all I want is to sprawl on my bed without having any worries..
and feels the warmness of my pillow~!xD

I wish to snuggle up to my parents..
return to the days of my childhood..
as I'm really listless to the daily routine of mine..

hoarse voice..
was the consequence ..
after a 4 hours of shouting and screaming..
like a bloody nut that lost her mind..
however, fun and joy will never be miss out in this case

The clock ticks..
and never stops..
Day by day..
no matter how we will be..
the time will never wait us....
Once we are borned to this world..
We should have predicted that there's a day
we have to give a wave of hand to this world too..

I roamed over the sky..
Looking at the dark cloud covering the clear blue sky..
wondering the purpose of breathing in this world..

I shall shake some sense into myself..
Life is all about accomplish targets while enjoy ourselves..
right?
I shall not to be dreadful to face this world..
Challenges are the spices in life..
We must accept the inevitable spices of life..
If we face it valiantly..
we will sure to have own a success life..

PS: Success life doesn't mean to have wealth as the first place..^^

The new me

2009-03-12T17:07:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time since I update my blog.
Throughout the days...
I really don't have a single idea on subject to post up in my blog.
Neither my fingers disallow to type..
nor my heart don't seem to be open..
Just I shall let the PAST to be the PAST..^^

People do change as the clock ticks..
Either physically or mentally.
Or even both at times..
I feel I have changed myself this year..
whether to good or bad..
I have nothing to say..

Today..
In library..
I borrowed a book titled "The Success Principle" by Jack Canheld.
I just get the time to read front few pages..
and from there...
I got some meningful messages which are
-taking 100% responsibility on our own lives
-99% percent of all failures come from people who have a habit of making excuses
-all blame is a waste of time.No matter how much fault you find with another, regardless of how much you blame him, it will not change you.
Along my 16+ years on this earth..
I could see the mirror of myself making excuses..
X.X
Today,I shall tell myself to give up on blaming!!

Besides..
I also started to explore the world in depth.
and the 1st thing I get to realise..
is the people around me..
I have being more and more petrify to everyone..
Each being tend to change to be so-called "fishmonger"
The feeling of timorous in my soul..starts to be stronger as the day passed..
The rock may seem beautiful at appearance..
But we all just can't estimate on what is behind it..
It may be like heaven or even like hell..
but as to who I am now..mostly..I would predict it as hell..

Belief to others..
have lost its confidence..
I rather to be alone..
and do my own work in peace..
Afterall, I didn't feel "loneliness" at all..
Actually every feeling of us..
Our mind take have the most authority..
If we think we are NOT lonely,
we WILL NOT be lonely..
and the vice versa..

No matter how..
the road in front of me will be
I shall confront it!!
with this..
A "HI" I should wish to the new me..=]

I fall!!!!!!

2009-01-29T09:48:00.002+08:00

I SURRENDER~!!
Being...too NOT smart..
Too dumb..
and this will be the consequence..
I finally fall~!!!T.T
Why isn't I be cruel???
T.T
wanted to kill a living thing...
I'm not able to do...
Either it is harm or not..
I still couldn't do it..
The most I'm able is just a really soft attack~!!!
I'm really out of energy..
making others satisfy....
Hoping they smile...is a hope of mine..
I can't do my job well..
complaints can be heard..
Indirectly tearing my body into pieces..
Going too front..
Going too back...
I couldn't balance myself..
All I could do..I already do..
However..
there's always obstacles..
Someone you may trust...
may betray you~!!
May make the thing worsen than it ever be..
I have learnt my lesson..
Of locking something precious..
just in my heart
and not in other speakers..
Advices from her...
I shall appreciate..
Falling down is just something we will face in life..
Face it bravely..
and not to hide yourself away from it..
I shall work smarter from now onwards...
Falling down isn't a big deal afterall..
It is Just a pathway to success~!!!
Gambatte~!=]

speechless..

2008-12-28T11:35:00.003+08:00

When I leave you,
I feel something not right..
When I pull you near,
I feel the same thing..
*sigh*
I don't know what to do..
Or maybe I'm not used to it?
I'm self-centered~!!
I don't care what happening around me..
except for me,myself and I...

I'm not as good as others..
I'm as dumb as I could be..
I can't make decision by myself..
Cause I scare once I take the wrong step..
Guilty will just be my life partner..

Every step I take..
I'm over careful till I can't decide ..
I'm standing all by myself..
Not even dare to take a step..T.T

Even my juniors..
are more brave than me ..
But me...
AM I over careful?
Cause I never wanna make any mistake..
I rather choose to turn back..

Two
different fruits...
different taste..
however,both also can say to be my favourite fruits
But..which fruit will I choose if I would given a choice for only 1?
Shall I not choose any of the fruits?
or choose 1 of them?

What's wrong with me????
They are just fruits~!!!
I'm already that hard to make decision...

Am I out of my mind?
Even fruits I am having trouble to choose..
I'm insane!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wish I never grow up~!!

2008-12-26T09:10:00.002+08:00

Why do I need to grow up?
Why is "love" appear in our life?
I don't know what decision I shall make..
I don't know what is love??
T.T
But forces just come from everywhere..
asking me ..
to figure out..
why is life like that?
why can't we be friends..and play together happily?
I still haven't ready for all the relationship thingy..
I just want be friends with everyone..
Can't you understand me?
T.T
I don't mean to hurt u..

I feel so bad...
I can't do my stuffs ..
Stacks of homeworks on the table..
But I just can't think of anything..
My mind is so blank..
as if I have no direction..
studies?relationship?
I guess I can't cope up with both of this..
I'm useless..
I'm not wise..
God~!!!!
Please help me...
I really hope he would understand me~!!x.x

A new start for it..

2008-12-07T08:00:00.004+08:00

Ultimately...
I myself released it..
with my bare hands..

Looking at it
with its faded wings flew away..
I'm so helpless..
But it would be a better choice..
To hurt it as much as I could..
To give it an answer to delete me..
To let it has a reply to itself that I'm not worth to be keep in its mind..

After the day I caged it..
Till now...
no...not now...til the day I put a full stop..
The days with it keep flashing through my mind..
The moment I released it..

It has been free now..
Really free...
Free from all the suffering..
that I caused it to be..
From the day I saw it..
and let the tempt...in me rose..
make me do something that really cause it alot of suffering..

I'm guilty..
I'm sorry..
I don't mean to be that cruel..
I speak every words with a knife..
That cut through it..
I just wanna let it totally forget about me..
Not even to leave the little bit of me..

I don't know..what I should do..
Knowing its tears flow...
I could actually sense its suffering..
How many tears I cause it to flow..
Is the double of my wrongs...

I'm actually sad to free it..
I have no idea why..
But I believe...
This is really the best choice among all..
The days...with its...
I shall never forget..
The honey of us..
shall be kept in my mind..

The minute I say "bye"..
It indicated the full stop..
It indicated the end of everything..
I really hope it will be resilient enough to face this..
I guess it wouldn't be that fast to recover..
Its wings had turn....into a very light colour..
And it really need time...to turn it back to its previous
dark
colourful
lively colour..

A new start for it..
and also for me...
To live without the existence of each other..
To put an end point of the past..
and to put a start point of the present..
It might be tough
for US..
nevertheless we shall face it..

The wishes for it..
to be happy
to be confident
to be healthy
and find someone else that are much more worth than me..
to own a place in its heart..

Time...will be the item to neutralise everything..
Let time n fate lead us where we are..
I believe suffering will end soon..
It will eventually...forget me soon..

Stone

2008-11-12T21:49:00.003+08:00

It used to be gentle..
delicate..
fragile..
mild...
However, as the days passes..
resistance become even stronger than before..
there is no other way than undergoing transmutation..
The Only way is to be as hard as a rock..
a total strong opposition to any word related to "soft"..
that will never be affect by any thunder or storm..
I know..it's hard..
to modify from soft to hard..
nevertheless it will still be holding this hope of transform..
Others can stand with so many stones above of them..
some with the help of things..
yet some without..
It truly become an admirable thing looking those without's..
Even so..it has no power to stand all by itself..
as it still haven't wash off the tenderness in it..
No matter how tough it will be in future..
A promise had been made..
that it wouldn't have the word "give up" in mind..
"give up" have been prohibited..
Seeing the place where it comes from..
somber that always feels the air..
It will be trying its best...
to change the dull environment..

No matter the rubber band will break or not...
it will still continue..
to reach the peak~!
Anyway..I will never let the rubber band to break..
but the changing of environment would surely be one of the its resolution~!^^

Piercing sadness..

2008-11-06T15:09:00.004+08:00

A flower may seem really nice..
A rose can be a good example of one..

It...
mostly will appear in pleasing affair..
though..it has thorns on it..

I did being naive once upon a time..
and end up with my fingers got cut by It..
thorns..which is so ..
inhumane..
irresponsible..
and piercing..

AS to be strong enough..
Ways to protect myself from getting hurt are on duty..
No matter which way..
I will be getting a repercussion..
which turns everything somber..

Frankly,a rose may play an important role for a couple..
and used by everyone for any merry vacation..
But it doesn't mean that it could be condescend to others..
Its weaknesses..
No word shall come out from my mouth..
I know , I know..
Despite I am out of control..

Penitent which creeps day after day...
shall be my punishment..
To prevent the environment to be filled with frown..
Why not I just avoid myself from going near it?
As there's a saying..
"Prevention is better than cure" ..
Isn't it?

Never bother to care so much of others..
As me myself alone won't be able to gratify everyone on earth..
Myself is me! Me is myself!
I never please anyone for understand me..
For I understand myself ..will be the only thing which matter..^^

Nothing is Impossible

2008-11-02T16:52:00.003+08:00

A bud of a flower..

Symbolises the initial point..

Blooming of a flower..

would create a gay environment..xD

Since there's a starting..

There will surely be an ending..

However,so..obstinate..

Even so self-centered...

That it don't bother about theirs..

Childish behaviour ..

Makes no proof can clear its wrong..

NOT mature at all..

neither kind or whatever..

As we know..

flowers are the one..

that brings happiness to us..

Moreover,its leaves..

supply the oxygen..

balance the ecosystem..

and let us survive on this earth..

Why would it forget their merit??

and make the flowers lack of the sunshine..

Everyone will reach the end point..

Before they reaches..

I shall make the difference in their lives..

I wouldn't let the tears rolled down..

I shall be strong..

Tears of mine..can make NO difference..

Why must I waste time for that?

There is no loser in this world..

Reason for failure is just "worm disease"..

In short,NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE~!

Trade of "silver"..

2008-11-02T15:53:00.002+08:00

A butterfly in a garden..
Makes me feel the tempt of it..
rose in my soul..

It gives me..
the feeling of..
red and blue..
but most of it..
laughters will be the only thing..
that filled the space of the air..

Voracious me..
Blindly caged it..
But when I was thrown by a question mark,about it..
Nothing would come out from my mouth..

After a long period..
the colour of the wings faded..
eventually..
my mood is totally propotional to its wings..

I never thought of the tomorrow..
AS a consequences,this is the result,down in the mouth...

Guilty..will never change anything..
Sorry..will never make any difference..

Looking the faded wings..
How i wish..I never be that egocentric~!

Mouths of people..
Words of others..
Gone through my right ears to my left ears..
Again and again..

I never blame them..
Maybe..my personality matches their sayings..
I tried to just do what I want to do..
As..I live just because of ME,MYSELF and I..
^^

The only hope..
i wanted is..
embedded "resilience" in it..
I wish..to trade the " silver " of mine with it..
But I still can't find a succesful trade..

Thanksgiving day!!^^

2008-10-31T14:48:00.008+08:00

Today..
my school was having thanksgiving day..
We celebrate this day every year on the last day of form 5..
As today was the last day for the seniors,I really miss them a lot especially my godsis..
This day was a suitable time to show gratitude to everyone especially our teachers..
^^
This day can be meant as a very special day..
LOL..
It taught us to appreciate our teachers,parents,friends and others..
The events were started after recess..
It started off wif some students talking about their lifetime..
and from there..
I realised that I'm damn lucky to have such a wonderful family..
I admire those colistrian who spoke out on their lifetime..
A real touching scene for me when I hear them..
Besides..
there was slide show of teachers with their children..
and
Mr.Rozaidi and his son was the funniest one..but also the most loving one..
AS what I could see..he really really love his boy~!xD
Then..there was two dance..
and sing along..^^
The song tittled "Mama" was the most meaningful one~!

Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the times I forgot

Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changed along the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
I miss you, I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
And I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

Moreover,"mungkin nanti" and "you raise me up" were also sang by everyone in the hall!!
Do you people truly understand the word "FAMILY"?
It is..
F ather
A nd
M other
I
L ove
Y ou

LOL..therefore..love your family every hour,minute and second of the day..
Appreciate them..
Before it's too late..
by the time..crying over the spilt milk will never make any changes..^^
Family is the one who will stand by you..
when you scorned by all the beings on earth..
Daddy and mummy are the one..
who just hope to give their children the best..
who will sacrifice for the sake of their children..

Daddy and mummy are the one who WE should put at the first place in our heart..
They did everything just because of their children..
Yet as children grow up..
the percentage of hurting their parents' heart increase..
Difference of opinions ...
will just create arguement..
forming a sombre environment..
As a consequence, mummy and daddy eyes will be filled with tears..

with that..
try obeying your parents..
because everything they do is just for the SAKE of their CHILDREN..

Actually..
feeling thankful..should not be only during thanksgiving day..
It should be everyday..
Feeling thankful
to the God..for being alive..
to our parents..for their showers of love and care..
to our teachers..for their knowledge..

CLS is a caring school..
as they always stressed on being good to the elders especially parents and teachers..
Thanksgiving day was actually an implantation of gratitude to others..
A day we could practise the slogan of our school which is..
"Be Aware, Care and Share"..
^^

=Once a colistrian,Always a colistrian= ^^

An egg , the bud of a flower , the start of a new life..

2008-10-19T10:19:00.008+08:00

2 days had just passed..

Though now is still morning...

But..the night will come in the blink of an eye..

I seem to be getting an egg..

for next week..

LOL

No preparation have I done..

Throughout this weekend..

It still not over yet..

But..

I just being as everything already over..

*sigh*

I may seem to treat it seriously..

But frankly..who wouldn't?

Unless for those who don't care about their future..

There's lots of things I wanna do in future..

I hope I will succeed my dream..

My goal...

My aim..

My target..

Having a great aim..

Shall be a REAL powerful motivator..

On the contrary, may also be a HEARTLESS killer..

To balance up yourself..

Is a tough task to do..

Never to go to the over powerful side ..

Never to go to the over powerless side..

However..

I guess..

Having an egg isn't that bad..

An egg may seem as simple as it can be..

But..behind it..

there is a REAL meaningful thing embedded in it..

An egg..

is a symbol of the start of NEW life..

just as new life emerges from an egg when the chick hatches out..^^

Another motivator I should say..

To inspire us to work hard in future..

Instead of dwelling on the past..

Hence..

Just do my best in whatever I could..

LOSE or WIN..

Isn't a big deal after all..

The things that matter is..

always a question, which is..

"Have I actually TRY MY BEST on them?"^^

Never weigh on any other but the things I learn..

2008-10-18T11:33:00.004+08:00

The moon is simply so round..
Deep in the dark..
It glows brightly..
Resulting the word "contrast"..

No star is to be seen..
Will the moon be clouded?
Will the world be dark forever?
A real dumb action I could say..

Something may seem as complicated as a maze..
But it is just as simple as drinking water..

Something may seem having an authority..
But it is just so powerless than any other..

Something may seem very fruitful..
But it is just as useless as it can be..

HAVING the chance to LOOK..
LOSING the ability to DO..

No sentence I could build ..
No word I could speak ..
No alphabet I could spell ..
Only a minute of ability, I possess..

Never ever be curious on..
The origin of tears..
When there is no begining..
There wouldn't be an ending..

All to do is..
Incessantly go on with my present aim..
Till I reach the peak of it..
With this are the only way to alter the cloudy sky..

Dominated by the annoying signs..
will just pulling my attention..
to a lower degree..
At the instant, lighting me on the colourless way of road..

Never work out on
the time I spend..
the agony I feel..
the ordeals I face..

But reckon at the things I learn..
from time,agony and ordeals..
To prove I can judge the road
right in front of me..^^

A meteor , A miracle that I'm waiting for..

2008-10-17T18:15:00.004+08:00

Every object has its own ability..
Every object has its limit..
Today..
Should be an awesome day for me..
Weekend is already in the doorway..
Happily waiting me to welcome its arrival..^^
But having to see the beads of H20..
It then changed my mood..
The larger the beads,the more worthless I feel..
I paused for a moment..
I never blame anyone..
ONLY the word "IF" flashed through my mind..
However..
My ability is limited..
Not to say hold THAT string, THIS string also I'm having trouble holding it...
Struggling..
and..
Firmly grip on the string..
All by the sweat of my brow..
I believe..
Every TRIUMPH need a SHOT..^^
I wanted to hold THAT string..
But I just can't help it..
I seriously hope I could..
Sadly,the answer is still "CAN'T"..
Time is the killer!!!
Time is the predator!!!
A feeble being here..
can do NOTHING..
But look at the authority of sombre
bit by bit owns your soul..
I hope a miracle could happen..
A miracle that could kick of the sombre
and
be the crutches of your success..

Never fail Never Learn!!

2008-09-18T18:42:00.004+08:00

In life..there is surely to be challenges waiting for us to face..
We can't run away from it..
We can't hide ourselves from it..
Though the pathway of life may be hard..
But we still need to walk till the extremity of it..

Looking at the road called "life"..
I feel a sudden surge of insecure..
Anxiousness started to develop in my soul..
Every step I take..from second to second..
Never have I feel it is safe..

I can't see what's ahead of me..
I can't see what challenges will I face..
Every challenges will just come spontaneously..
Things may just struck me middle of the road..
Thus, I may hurt myself anytime along the way..

Worry of getting hurt..
Worry of lefting behind..
Is always my worries..

However..
No matter how scary or tough the way of life..
I will try my best to face it..
NEVER FAIL NEVER LEARN~!
Having to face failure..
I shall be feeling glad..

The way of being successful...
will never succeed without FAILURE..
Life is always wonderful..
When it filled with smile and laughter..

Wealth is just the spices ..
of making our life more fantastic..
Never to own wealth..
Never to mean our lives is meaningless..

I'm saying this..
Neither cause I feel I couldn't reach a wealthy point of life..
Nor I'm trying to console myself..
Wealth is not the everything in life..
On the contrary,happiness is the core of life..

I keep on stressed "happiness" in my blog..
As I could see..
Not everyone owns felicity todays'..
Everyone..pulls themselves to the limit..
Onto achieving success...
Not to say they are wrong for this...

But..
If they trade contentment for this..
This action is so DAMN WRONG~!!
No matter what we did..
We shouldn't lose our smile..

So..
Look to the road of us with great curiousity..
On what kind of challenges set by God..
=]
Never to think to "GIVE UP"..
Everytime we fall..
Stand up bravely and continue on the journey..

With this,
I will be looking at the road ahead of me..
Never can I know what happen ahead of it..
But I will boldly confront it with a smile~!!
^^

A decision I had made..

2008-09-13T08:25:00.002+08:00

That day..
I stood on a land..
with 2 road..
2 road which will lead me to 2 different places..
I couldn't made my decisions..
There are people who go for the 1st road and the 2nd one..
Both are equally the same..
Other people could actually made that decision easily..
But not for me..
I'm in a total dilemma..
Keep on wondering which road should I choose..
I then chose the 1st road..
but I kept telling myself.."nono,I shouldn't be doing that"
So I went back to the initial point where I stood..
and chose the 2nd one..
along the way........
lots of things really changed..!!
everything that I once saw..are NOT THE SAME anymore..
I'm really stucked with this life..
I feel so aimless..
But the angel keep telling me..
I'm now in the right pathway..

Lust of the past..
I shall never yearn..
All I should do..
Is be super attentive in my present aim..

Question marks of the flower..
will be solved with the medicine called "time"..
Never should I be influence by that..
Never should I be dominated by that..

Flowers which blossom during the 1st road journey..
Gave me lots of laughter..
A feeling of being vital..
A feeling of making others life colourful..
Had it all turned to a dream..

A dream which I experienced..
A dream which I hope to come true..
There's no use looking back or wondering..
A dream IS JUST A DREAM~!
A dream which never come true..

A hope of mine..
The blossoming of the flowers..
Will be the same,though..
The disappearance of me arised..
Having to know they bloom..
Will be the only hope I own..

Complexion of dark..
should be wipe off~
Let's look to the sky above...
with a smiling sunshine..
and get forward with my pathway of life..^^

SkiNniNg AniMaL aLiVe Is DAMN BRUTAL~!!

2008-09-06T18:49:00.005+08:00

MOST of us feel that products from animals' fur are really nice..!!
But do WE know the process behind the products?

Yesterday..
Was the first time we had a REAL beneficial moral lesson..
Thanks to Evelyn and Jia yi..
They both presented an ICT presentation with 2 videos..
One of the videos was on whale hunting..(if not mistaken)
Another one was on animal skinning..
Guess what?
The videos really touched each and everyone in my class..
Everyone was looking at the videos with tears..
They were all stunned when they encounter how cruel WE the human are to the animals..
Though the animals are not human..but they do have lives~~
They DO HAVE FEELINGS~!!
HOW COULD HUMAN JUST SKIN THEM ALIVE???
I advice you people to have a look at the video in this website..
http://animalsaviors.org/
But don't ever watch that video with your tummy fully filled~!=)
Please help to SPREAD this awareness in today's being!!
Human seem to be SO self-centered..
Feeling so arrogant while carrying all those products by animal skin
and IGNORING the suffering of the animals ~~
CAN YOU HUMAN BE JUST SO CALLOUS???T.T

Let it rain,let it rain,let it rain~!!!

2008-09-04T19:14:00.003+08:00

Again..there comes the rain..
Sometimes..the sky..really seem to understand my feeling..
=P
Whenever i feel sad..most probably it will rain..
Rain~Rain~Rain~
Suddenly feel so isolated..
when looking upon the sky..
dark clouds covering the sunshine..
as if the world lost its glamour..
Everyone was holding to the umbrella..running here and there..
Tapping of the rain is heard by the window..
Surrounding atmosphere is just so dull..
Rain ~!!!!!!!!
Let it rain,let it rain,let it rain~~~
Let it drain all my sombre~!!
^^

The feeling of ego should be eradicate from one's soul~

2008-09-04T17:02:00.004+08:00

Let me share with you guys a story..
A story of a girl named Sally..
She once found a bird at a garden..
A really beautiful one..
=P
She felt really contented that she found it..
However,her parents do not allow her to have that bird in the house..
So..all she could do..is just go to the garden and visit it after school everyday!!
Throughout the time..she really spent lots of happy moments with it..
Whenever she cry..it will be right beside her..
or even plucks her a rose to make her smile..
Whenever she laugh..it will also be there to share the jubilation with her..=)
She thought that the bird will always be with her..
Sadly..the bird has its own life..
Sally don't have the rights to control it..
she kept telling herself that she shouldn't keep the bird with her!!!
She shouldn't be that ego!!!!!
The bird has its rights to find its own life partner..
To have the moment of romance with its partner..
To fly together freely above the sky with its partner..
She did consider to let go the bird..
But she feels reluctant to let it go..
To not hold it on..!
To not be that selfish!!
But she just failed~!!!
Then,one day..one of her friends..
let the bird away..
Her friend told the bird to go and have its own life..
Sally..felt really sad..as she had spent most of her time with it throughout the years..
As she watched the bird flew off..
Her tears just rolled down..
The feeling of happy and sombre is mixed as her tears flow~
She is happy because..the bird could finally has its own freedom..
She is unhappy because..the bird left her..
After thinking for a moment..
She eventually made up her mind..
She shouldn't be that self-centered..
To keep the bird with her..
Let it be free~~
Though..deep in her heart..it may hurts..but..
TIME would be the BEST medicine!!
=)
Sally had actually made the best choice in her life..to free the bird..
and To never think of being EGOCENTRIC~!

I love my parents forever!^^

2008-08-30T17:37:00.003+08:00

A lovely couple would usually wanted a child in their family?
Why would it be so?
In my opinion,I would say..
A child is
a god's gift to a couple..
a significance of their love..
a liaison between a couple..

When we are borned to this colourful world..
Our parents are mostly contented to be looking at us coming out from our moms' womb~!
Once we are borned..
Parents would always hope that their role in educating us to be
a civic-minded person
a virtuous person
and an useful being to our nation
would be a triumphant one!

When we are still infants..
we used to cry middle of the night..
just to have our milk or others..
Parents would always be the one..having the WORST nightmare in their life..
when they need to stay awake middle of the night ..
JUST to take care of us!!!
Thus,they have no choice
but to go to work with a so-called "panda-looking faces"..xD

When we were children..
Parents seem to be our heroes..
^^
Whenever we faced any problem like..
having difficulties in opening a cover..
being bullied by friends in school..
and etc..
We will just feeling to call "MUMMY" or "DADDY"..
and they would be right beside us to solve all the plight!
^^

But as we entered the teenage life..
We faced many difficulties..
in variety of aspects..
Those difficulties are
not that simple as we used to encounter during our childhood..

We begin to have our own opinion and to make our own choices..
This is the time..
where we will be implanting the word "INDEPENDENCE"
in our soul..
However..parents are still very anxious of letting go of their hands..
to make us walk by ourselves,
hence they act as the so-called "crutches" to help us..
They give us advices and try their best to prevent us from going to the negative side!

In our teenage mind..
we thought that the person that let us do whatever we want is the person who care for us the most..
This thinking is totally wrong..
On the contrary,people who scold and forbid us from the dangers of this world is the person who care for us the most..
Does our parents get any benefit for scolding us?
Do you think our parents are enjoying when scolding us?
In fact,everytime our parents scold us,
their heart will be as pain as an arrow that strike their heart..

After so much of suffering that our parents confronted..
Shall we as their children do something to make all their suffering worth?
We shall obey them and not hurt them with unpleasant words..
They are the one that bring us to this amazing world!
a world filled with many colours!!

All I want to say to them is..
Don't worry my beloved parents!
I will work hard in giving you a luxury life..
Sorry for any disrespect act of me!
You both are the most important being to me!!
Thanks for showering me love and care!=P
I love my daddy and mummy forever in my life!^^MWAH~!

HeRe iN My HoMe

2008-08-21T16:33:00.001+08:00

hehe..
Here is a really nice song..
So..that's why I posted it up here..
However,the most important thing is..
the message that embedded in this song lyric..

Here in my home~~~^^
This is the country where I was born..
MALAYSIA is always my home no matter where I go..
=P
MALAYSIA BOLEH~!^^

It iS nOt As SiMpLe As yOu ThiNk iT iS..

2008-08-21T13:19:00.004+08:00

All of a sudden..
Everything around is just so strange..
Every present has turned into a dull colour..
Together packed with a black ribbon..
Filled with sharp evidence..

Pieces of evidence that are so apparent..
Never can I deny of them..
Craving a mark in my heart..
Leaving me an unforgettable memory..
Piece by piece,building the "courage" in my soul..

The pure white flower ..
That stand high up by its own..
Without any support of others..
Could soon be a remarkable achievement..
As it is not that simple as you think it is..

2008-08-19T18:21:00.003+08:00

Holidays has just started..Yippie!!

I don't need to get myself out of the bed EARLY in the morning..

hehe..

Sometimes holidays isn't a happy thing for me..

Cause there are loads of homework pending on my table!!!

T.T

especially additional maths!!!!(shown below)

SEE!?!

my table is full of add maths stuffs~!!!!

Argghhhh!!!How can I get myself done with that homework!!!!

I'm stucked at the second page!!

*sigh*

T.T

Hope I could finish my add maths as fast as I could!!!

All the best , yan!!!=P

One Life Exhibit

2008-08-15T14:54:00.010+08:00

On 13.08.08..
I went with some of my school friends to Gurney Plaza during our KK(curicculum) period..
We went there to see the one life exhibition by bus led by two teachers..
The exhibit is about the HIV/AIDS patients..
At first I thought it's kinda boring as..to me..I always thought exhibition would only comprise
pictures and words..
But when I reached there..It was quite alike with what I have thought..
all those words and of course pictures too..
But..it's MORE interesting than I have thought..
I couldn't go in that day as we were lacking of time..
The exhibition was held from 12.08.08-14.08.08..
Since yesterday was the last day and I was VERY CURIOUS to experience the exhibition..
So,I went to gurney with my bestie last night..
The exhibition was really creative~~
You guys can actually experience the life of those children who had been affected by HIV/AIDS.. You will be given a MP3 player with headphone..
The MP3 player will actually lead you along the way ..
Indirectly bringing you into a different condition..
A world where you are suffering from lots of family problems..
and the Aids virus that struck your family actually worsen the condition...
The sad looking pictures of the people..
all around you..
will surely touched you..
Their resilience in confronting those problems..
Their courage in facing all those difficulties..
Their desire to live on without thinking of giving up..
are extremely astonishing ~~

I apologized for the blur pictures..can you actually see my hand was stamped with a "cross" sign.

It was actually means that I was affected by HIV!!!!T.T

LOL

Funny enough~~It's kinda like a game..

where you could see some people were infected by AIDS and some were not..

And I was grouped to the HIV patients group..SOB~!

CHOI~~PLEASE don't mistaken!!!I'm still healthy ya~~! not affected by any HIV virus~~=)

I also left some encouragement words for the HIV children..

Besides..Do you see the bracelet I wore in the pictures shown above?

It was given as a souvenir that proved I had been to that exhibition~!^^

Here are the brochures of the One life exhibition..
Really a once-in-a lifetime experience..
Where I could step into a world where all the unexpected and unfavourable events smote my family..
and I was feeling so powerless ..that I couldn't help anyone from leaving the family..
From the exhibition..I really learned A LOT~!
REALLY A LOT~!
I Learned to appreciate whatever I have..
Especially my family members~!
The HIV exhibition was a new experience to me~!!
where I knew there are still so many children who actually being more unlucky..
So..you guys out there..
Stop moarning about how sux your life is..
Live your life happily..
Cause the most vital thing in life is JUST HAPPINESS~!

Peak ~~

2008-08-10T15:44:00.000+08:00

Mount Everest!!!
^^
The highest mountain on earth!
=P
I wanted to hike up the mountain now!!
I wish I could reach the peak of that mountain..
Every way of trying..
I still can't do it..
Every time I fail reaching the peak..
I just can't hold my tears from rolling down..
Blaming myself on how obtuse am I..
I hope to be like any other mountaineer that could reach the peak..
Maybe I'm born like that..
or maybe..I'm setting a super duper high target for myself..
As there is an idiom in BM which is "Ukur baju di badan sendiri"..
My whole entire body is just not fit for that so-called "glamorous shirt"..
So..
Be who I am is the best..
Don't need to stretch the small rubber band that hard..
Or else..it will just break ~~
Do whatever I could do..
But not over the limit of my ability..

An advice for myself..
A console word to myself..
Holding a believe..
that i will never over stretch myself~~
^^

LiFe BesTiE

2008-08-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

Friends..
In this world..there are lots of human who can be our friends..
But there is only a minute of true friends..
True friends are really hard to find..
You should be glad if you found one..
As for me..
I feel really blessed to have true friend..
She had been with me since primary two..
I still remember the first time she helped me though I don't really know her....
Through about 8 years of friendship..
We have hold hands together to face those challenges in becoming a teen..
To go through thick and thin in life..
We
shed tears..
laugh out loud..
play around..
together..
She understands me..
She believes in me..
We can even say the same thing at the same time too..xD
She is just like my twin sister..
Whenever I need her..she will be there..
I hope our frendship will last forever..
=)
Even when we may separate after graduation..
Our moments together will always be in my heart!
And her status in my heart will never be replaced by anyone forever..
She is my life bestie!!
I Love her to the deepest of my soul!
=P

LOVE vs WEALTH~!

2008-07-25T20:32:00.001+08:00

LOVE or WEALTH?
Wealth can bring comfortable life to us..
Due to...
todays economic which is in deep recession..
wealth really mean a lot to US,the inhabitants of this planet called EARTH..
Without money..there is no life~
Money is one of the necessaries in life~
But the probability of money leading us to happiness is just 1/2~~
What about love?
Love without wealth may bring a demanding life..
Wealth can never buy happiness which you hope for..
Without happiness, life wouldn't have any meaning~
But the probability of love leading us to happiness is 10/10..
To me....
Love is the most vital thing in life..
But of course wealth is also essential too..
Sometimes,I ever wanted to be a beggar just to own love..
Without the someone,my soul gonna be in control by sombre~~
I never hope for any luxury life..
With you by my side,I'm already contented!
in short,
LOve owns 9/10 of my soul~while wealth only owns 1/10 of it~!
=P

TEST!!! SoB SoB =(

2008-07-20T11:19:00.001+08:00

T.T
My test is just NEXT MONDAY~~
However,I'm still not prepared for it..
Last minute of studies..is always like that..
*sigh*
I'm freaking boring on memorising all those bloody names for biology,history,chemistry and so on...
I wonder why most of the subjects are more on memorising?
What about those absent-minded people like me?
I can't fit so much stuffs in my mind!!!
Guess I shall be prepared to flunk my papers?
*sigh*
Test ~~~
Everytime when it comes to test..
I will be feeling so blue~~
I think..I shall not be so..
In our journey of life..there's always tests in between..
I shall be brave to face it..
Fearlessly face all the failure !!
Without failure,there won't be any triumph~
So..since the test is soooooooo damn near..
and I couldn't really do much on it..
Let's face it with courage..
and accept the results that I will be getting..
though it may be bad..
But it comes from the efforts that I have put it..^^

Forget the frowning and start off with smiling^^

2008-07-17T16:34:00.001+08:00

Doing well in examination..
Holding a high post..
Being famous..
With this..everyone tend to look up on the person..
What about those..
in the opposite condition ?
Is they gonna be neglected by others?
Why men today will only look on intellectualism and not mentality?
I just don't understand how human todays tend to be so..
Imagine..
if you are in the opposite condition?what you guys actually feel?
The feeling of neglected..is it a nice feeling after all?
Those in opposite condition always being look down by others..
Is being friend with them an ignominious thing to do?
Why can't you guys treat them as those in so-called "high rank"?
Why must you love comparing them with those "high rank" human?
Not all human is perfect!!
Comparing them will only make them lose confident bit by bit~~

However..
Never dread of them,my dear..
You are not alone..
Don't hear what they say about you..
Just be ordinary..
Simple of you...may impress others one day..
Don't try to change yourself just to gratify others..
You live on this earth..is not because of them!
You live because of yourself!
Live your life to the fullest and make every event in life a happy one^^
Forget the frowning and starf off with smiling!
With this ,sombre happening will be gone~~

2008-07-15T15:52:00.000+08:00

Today..
My class did a chemistry experiment on comparing the properties of ionic and covalent compounds..
There was one part where we supposed to heat the napthalene before observing the bulb lights up or not..
And here start the "exciting" happening of ekang's group!!hehe..
While they are heating the naphthalene using a crucible on a bunsen burner..
I don't know how~~~the crucible caught fire together with the naphthalene in it..XD
Luckily it is not a "big" fire..but still
it causes the whole lab to have air pollution!!!!!!
All those "naphthalene dust"(i don't know what it should be called as..X.X) was flying all over the places in the lab..
Those dust stuck on our uniform and leave stain behind!!!==ll
Fortunately,my uniform doesn't have any stain ..unlike sarah!!ahahaha..ekang ,denise(GOSH!denise's is the worst?)xD and others..
A very nice experience though!!

Then...the next incident was..
Encik Rozaidi is back from Japan!!T.T
so,this means we couldn't have the chance to fool around during history lesson anymore!!
What a sad thing!!=(
XD
However...I think it should be a blessing in disguise!
Cause my class is way behind on our history lesson from other classes..
=P
So,should I actually welcome him back?XD
Anyway,welcome back En.Rozaidi!!!^^
He spent some time talking on topic about Japan when he came in class today..
He commented that Singapore is well-known of the cleanliness..
But Japan is much more CLEANER than Singapore!!
Besides,during his visit in Hiroshima,
he actually cried while looking on pictures of the suffering of the citizen when the atomic bomb is released by British in Hiroshima and Nagasaki!!
I really wish I could visit Japan one day!!
and the first destination in Japan which I would like to visit is Disneyland,Tokyo!!!(^^)

Penitent

2008-07-14T14:30:00.001+08:00

*sigh*
Put others out is what I usually did!!
Every obtuse action of mine always tend to bother others..T.T
Can I just not be that dim-witted??
*SOB*
Today..I just did something ...
It troubles her to walk the whole place just to search someone!!
Just of my action..
It causes such an inconvenience to her..
Remorse filled my soul when I realised I troubled her..
I am really sorry to hassle her..
and also others that I have once bothered..
Really sorry for all my dull-witted actions that lead to inconveniences..
Once again,sumimasen~!!!

wondering..

2008-07-14T14:00:00.001+08:00

Time will just flies as fast as it could..

Human will just change as the clock ticking..
My mind is bombarded with lots of question marks..

Wondering...

and wondering the "something"

Something..which I have no idea to explain it..

or to express it out..

I believe nothing can just last forever..

NOTHING~!

Not even a really damn freaking intimate relationship!

I wonder how the person will be after 5 years ..

I wonder when the person will step out of my life and the only thing left was just the footprints..

However..I have just made up my mind..

I wouldn't be that greedy..

I shall be satisfy about the memories we have created..

Treasure the moment with the person..

while waiting for the day..the person go vanished out of my life..

=bu zai hu tian chang di jiu,zhi zai hu cheng jing yong you=^^

Tagged!!!T.T

2008-07-14T13:10:00.001+08:00

*sigh*Get tagged for the second time!==lll
Was kinda lazy to do this tag though..
(^^,))))))))
THX to that EVIL EKANG!!!!xD

8 things I'm passionate about:
1. Family for sure~!^^
2. Friends!!!=P
3. Clothes!!kakax..*sound vain*>.<
4. Music~~!!no music no life!!Music is the only so-called tool~dat i could "speak" my feelings out!>.<
5. food~!hahax..i juz like eating fast food though it's unhealthy!X.X
6. Money ??$.$ haha..duh..who don't hope a luxury life?XD
7. my bb~!hahax..without my bb..i couldn't sleep..==ll
8. my hp lur~~i guess~~xD

8 things I say too often:
1. Bleuk~!!xD
2. OMG~!ahahhaa..
3. my life is so miserable!=P
4. Speechless..+.+
5. i miss you!!!hahax..*crap*
6. Boo~~
7. Shouting "miss world,miss universe,miss solar system,miss galaxy" with yinyin.X.X
8. die already la~~~hahax!

8 things I do too often:
1. talk and talk and talk
2. mimicking others~!xD
3. simply crab whole day..doing silly stuff~!xD
4. go online~
5. mam mam!
6. music
7. last minute homeworks *hahh
8. sms!=)

8 things I've read recently:
1. blogs
2. newspaper
3. some inspiring stories
4. comments *in friendster*
5. bulletin *in friendster*
6. song lyrics
7. emails
8. tags

8 songs I could listen over and over again:
1. Xin Yuan Bian Li Tie by Wu Zhong Ming and Yuan Ruo Lan
2. Better In Time by Leona Lewis
3 99 Ci Wo Ai Ta by Yuan Ruo Lan
4. Heavenly days
5. 3 yue 9 ri
6. qian qian qian shou by Kenji Wu
7. Your love is a lie
8. No air

8 things I learned last year/recently:
1. Humans do change!!This include me!I'm changing!!X.X
2. Be statisfy with what I have once owned.
3. It's hard to gratify everyone around me
4. Live a happy go lucky life~~
5. This year is the most enjoyable year though the studies is so TOUGH!T.T
6. Life in form 4 is so tiring!SOB!
7. Time is precious!=)
8. True friend is hard to find!

8 people to tag to:
1.Jerry
2.Anna
3.Grace
4.BigBaddieBear*guess he wont bother to do this tag though..xD*
5.Chuan yean
6.Yi Ling
7.Carmen
8.Ee Lin

SPCA !WOOHOO~!xD

2008-07-09T10:34:00.001+08:00

WEEEEE~~~~^^

Today my class went to SPCA~

Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals!=)

It was organised by my school civic commission for 4sn1 and 4sn2..hahax..

This is my first time going there..LOL

My first time feeding the doggie with water..

My first time letting the doggie to lick my hand..

My first time carrying the doggie!!

HAHA

Besides,

I also help out in bathing the dog..

LOL

The dog's fur is so soft..AHAHA

But it's kinda sad to see them homeless..

I even saw a 3 legged dog named "Charity"..T.T

It is really pity to see it in such a "special" condition..

Sarah and me spare the most time on it..

however,Charity is really cute ~!

Before going back..

I bought a shirt from SPCA~!(look below)

LOL..nice right?

hahax

Bought it as a remembrance of going to SPCA!kakax!

It only cost RM15..

=P
Overall,I really have a splendid and revelling time with the cute doggie!!whoa whoa~~!!^^

Miss you doggie!!!=(

Trust towards the "secret box"..

2008-07-08T08:18:00.001+08:00

When I was still a child
someone gave me a box..
He told me..
"Appreciate this special box,where you can share your joyfulness and mournfulness..Before that,understand it fully first.."
and so..I figure out
the purpose of it..
the meaning of its colours..
the meaning of its patterns..
I thought with this..
I already fully understand the box..

Thus,I believe in it..
I keep every secret of mine in it..
A place where I feel secure to keep in..

However..today..
Someone asked me..
about the significant of the internal colour of the box..
This question astouned me..
As I never realised the meaning of the internal colour is still unidentified~!

This question made me feel so lost in my own world..
bombarded with lots of question marks..
With this..
The "trust" of me on the box..
is declining~~
T.T
A trust where I built so hardly just to mintain the status of authoritative box in my heart..
is all putting into waste now!!

Guess I..
musn't need to understand the box FULLY..
musn't need to understand the "abstract heart" of it..
After all..it's NONE of my bussiness..

The happening of today...
will it just vanish my trust on it?
will my trust be gain back?
All this questions are still having an unknown answer~

GaMbLiNG ChIP

2008-07-05T23:27:00.001+08:00

Life is just like gambling!!
This quote is often heard in the taiwan movie titled "Fated To Love You"!!
A quote said by Cun Xi to Xin Yi!
That quote then became an encouragement words to Xin Yi...
and also me!XD
LIFE IS JUST LIKE GAMBLING!=)
^^
As long as we got the gambling chip with us,there's still hope!
In life we need to make our choices carefully..
The choice we made..
can either be
win or lose..
right or wrong..
white or black..
There's no gray in between..
In gambling..
There is surely some losing and of course some winning too..
Just like what exactly happen in life..
We may sometimes fall and may sometimes be success..
Everytime I fall..I shall never forget..
the gambling chip of mine..
which is the COURAGE..
No matter how badly I have hurt..Courage is just like the crutches that help me to continue go on throughout my life's journey..
Besides..
Every gambling do have RISK!
Same as in life..
Risk is abstractly available in every choice!
We have to take the risk..
to be success..
Each and everyone in this world will surely fall at times..
There more we fall..the tougher we could be..
the more success we could be..
So..alyssa jia you ya!^^
IT'S ALWAYS OK TO FAIL IN LIFE~!=)

TiReD..

2008-07-01T22:17:00.001+08:00

PHEWWWWWWWWWW~~~~
What an exhausting day!!
Today is the parents-teachers day!!
X.X
Every parents are encourage to come to meet their child's form teacher to take the result slip for PPT(mid-year exam)
20 of the Form 4 renjers had to be on duty
to bring the parents to meet the respective teachers..
==lll
and I was on duty too!!!
We need to put on our smiling face...
to serve the parents and lead them to respective places where they could sit and wait for the teachers..
We seem to be like waitresses serving our customers a.k.a parents?LOL
At first,we were kinda energetic..But later on...
We get lazier and lazier~~~~
LOL
ESPECIALLY ME,THE WORMIE~!!!
hehe!
Some parents are SUPER DUPER concern with their child ..
as..they could talk about 1 hour with the teachers!!!LOL
We were on duty from 7.30-10 and 11-1.30..
But we did get some reward on doing duty~!
Guess what is the reward?LOL
RM3+
WE are the ONLY 3 getting RM3+(Ven , Jes & me)
Actually we should get RM2..but our teacher,Ms Chee doesn't have the change..
She is really a good English teacher!!She is my ex-form teacher during form 1!!LOL
The bestest form teacher I ever had!^^
But I finished that RM3 during recess ~ Guess I ate a lot?KAKA!!
And 1 thing that really make me happy is..
my dad did come for the parents-teachers day!^^
I thought he wouldn't come as he was kinda busy today..
But he did spare some time to come!
Looking at him walking in..I felt really happy!=P
And I brought him to see my form teacher,Ms Zorah!
Fortunately,Ms Zorah did not complained about me!^^
HAHA
After all,it's kinda fun though..
AS we renjers were playing around and chatting all day long~!
^^

I don't want to grow up!

2008-06-30T18:50:00.001+08:00

Life will be even tougher as you grow..
Challenges will be even harder as you grow..
Burden will be even heavier as you grow..
I just don't want to grow up!!!
I want to be a baby!
A baby is just so...
innocent..
pure..
as pure as a white cloth~~
Sleeping on a cradle..
with
no worries..
no stress..
Being a student in today's world..
is not as easy as everyone has thought..
Life is just so miserable ..especially for those secondary students..
Everyone is just looking at the students' grade..
but not the amount of effort that they had put in..
What is the point of getting string of A's?
Will they be successful in life?
Why must the men today's simply love comparing results between their child and others?
Grades in exam wouldn't really guarantee the student's future!!
As you people can see..
Some of The graduates from university work as the general worker or
even the road sweeper!!
Cause of the men's notion that grades is so damn important!!
This eventually lead to creating stress in teens!!
This include me!
Besides,problems such as friendship ,love and others..
Is just so...
sickening!!!
In short,
I just don't want to grow up!!!

HeLPLEsS M3!!T.T

2008-06-28T18:01:00.001+08:00

What has happened lately?
Everything seem to be not going smoothly..
Everyone around me seem to be facing lots of unpleasant events..
It's really heartbreaking to see..
their smiling faces turning to frowning one..
T.T
Although I'm not the one facing those unfavourable incidents,
I still feel sad...
Sad to see
their smiles fade away
their laughters vanish
their frowning faces turn out
and the most sadden me is that i couldn't find the word "happy" in them..
*sigh*
All I can do is to SEE SADNESS RULE THEIR SOULS..
This make me feel so helpless..
I couldn't help them..
I just could support them with motivational words..
Words that can't even really help them to stand up and face the challenges bravely..
Words which can't give anyone a new light of hope..
I'm just so USELESS!!
God....
I know you are the only one that could help me..
I believe in God..
I believe God will hear a powerless being here..
God...
Please let everything go smoothly..
Please give them courage to stand up~~
Please RETURN THE HAPPINESS they once owned..
I wish u would hear me..and fulfill my wish!!
My simple wish for the ones that I LOVE and CARE..=)

I WiSh..

2008-06-27T18:06:00.001+08:00

That day..
Someone phoned her from home..
Some dark incident just happened dramatically..
That day..
Is the last day that I see her smile...
She was someone ..
active..
humour..
and of course..someone that should be respected by every humans!
I respect her on being elder than me..
Being a great second mother to me..
However..now she became just so different..
like from a blue bright sky to a black dark one..
The atmosphere in class..was so dreary..
Laughter and jokes are never heard since that day...
As she had told my class before..
She loves teaching + maths..
She loves her job in teaching..
AND the most important thing is that she's enjoying herself..
Enjoying sending all her knowledge..
To US,the STUDENTS!!!
Every lesson of her..
Make me feel so keen in paying attention on it
But..
Seeing the numb look of her now..
Really sadden me..
I wish....
She would stand up bravely and be like the last time of "her"..
The energetic..
The humorous..
The joker..
on continuing the rest of her walkway in life..

Glass~~

2008-06-25T21:53:00.001+08:00

I once treasured the glass..
The glass really mean a lot to me..
I tried my best to appreciate it..
But still couldn't help it..
I can't fight against the fate..
It broke when the wind howled that day..
My heart was teared out as it broke..

However..
I tried to fix it back to normal..
As I fix..
Some pieces of it cut my hand..
I get frustrated..
and throw it into the dustbin..

As a result,I feel sad on doing so..
I feel guilty..
Guilty in doing so..
Guilty in throwing the pieces away..

And this encourage me..
No matter how I hurt my hand..
No matter how much blood flowed out..
I tried my best to fix it back to the square one..
I successfully fix the glass..
but..
there's something..which I can't fix..
It is the crack on it..
The so-called "stain" on it..

Everytime I see the crack..
It reminds me about the pain on fixing it..
At last..it breaks again..
And there goes ..
the same repeated incident happen to me..
but this time..each piece of the glass that cut my hand..
Hurt me not only physically but also internally..
The internal pain ~~
still couldn't be heal in my heart although it already passed~!
I guess the ONLY way healing it..
is only the ticking of the clock~~=)

TaGGeD~!X.X

2008-06-24T16:43:00.001+08:00

Tag-ed!T.T xD

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 4 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What are you craving now?
.HOLIDAYS~!xD

2. What was the last movie you've watched?
.1 litre of tears..xD

3. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 blog
??don't know

4. What are you most happy with now?
With having my friends and family..

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
Be a successful person in life~!

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
Y dont't I?I even saw that before..xD

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
sth~~xD

8. Why are you wasting your time to do this?
Because my friend tagged me!!!X.X

9. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
Mayb? Dunno~!xD Depends on the situation..

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
Erm..3 C!!!xD Clever,Charming and Cute!!xD

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
CNN,selfish and showing off!!==lll

13. What is your ambition?
Engineer?Accountant?or sth related to laboratory stuff~!=P

14. If you have fault, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
I rather they point out to me..cause I hope to know all my faults and try to chg it..X.X

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family,Friends and of course my beloved~xD

16. Are you a shopaholic or not?
Yes?xD Girls are always like that..

17. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you
Funny~!xD

18. What will you do when someone faints in front of you?
Call e-0-e-0~!xD

19. What makes you different?
My academic results~~~~aikz..

20.What is my wish?
I wish that everyone will have a happy and healthy life~!^^

My target~
1.Aaron
2.Chuan Yean
3.Denise
4.Evelyn

Be Aware, Care And Share!

2008-06-23T19:27:00.001+08:00

BE AWARE,CARE AND SHARE~~
^^
This slogan is printed in bilingual version in my school students' handbooks~
Morever,my headmistress is always reminding all the colistrians to implant this slogan in our soul~~
Today..
My school principal handed a mock cheque worth RM2000+ to Mr.Ng, who is from the Guang Ming Daily during the morning assembly..
^^

These money is donated for the China and Myammar earthquake victims~

Each and every colistrians do give our little support in it..included ME!!=)

Although RM2000+ is not really a big amount in today's..

But..

The most IMPORTANT THING is they are all come from the sincere heart of the colistrian..and of course..I'm sure teachers are not excluded too~!

=P

Habit of helping the others in need is what every human should practice..

WE ALL need help from everyone!

It's IMPOSSIBLE for you to not receiving anybody's help~~

So..Help others who are in need!!^^
"BE AWARE,CARE AND SHARE!!"
Bare in mind this slogan in your continuing life journey~!=)

=We can't help everyone, but everyone can help someone=

RaiNy Day~=P

2008-06-22T21:54:00.002+08:00

Today..the sky keep on crying~~
Sunshine is hardly to be seen in the sky..
Sky is crying..mustn't be taken as some kind of sadness..
Sometimes,it may be some kind of happiness..
For example..Humans do cry when they are happy too ,right?^^
However..I like this rainy condition..
This cooling condition..
which will not cause me to sweat..
=P
I simply LOVE rainy day!!xD

RaiNiNg SuNsHiNe!!

2008-06-20T19:48:00.001+08:00

Recently..many unhappy incidents happened in my life..
As there is a saying..life consists of up and down..
Maybe..this is the period of "down" in my life?
Losing my stuff..
Getting scolding..
Quarreling between friends..
Being guilty to others..
Being MORE N MORE CARELESS..
All these created sadness in my life..
*sigh*
Are they known as the obstacles of life?
I guess...they are!
They are those obstacles that lead me to a MORE mature and determined person..
I shall face all that with a great courage..
NEVER think of negative side..
And try my best to control my emotions which will only made the situations worse..
=P
However,contrary to all the sad events,there was also some happy events that really makes me happy!!
=)
So never think that..you are bad luck..
Cause..behind of all these bad luck..there will be some good luck as well..
LOOK FORWARD in life..
LIVE ON ..no matter what happens..
DON'T GIVE UP..
DON'T GIVE UP YOUR LIFE!!
In the rain..there is still sunshine to shine your days~!=P

My Daddy,My Hero!!

2008-06-15T11:31:00.001+08:00

Girls are always known as daddy's girls..
A daddy's girl knows that she is her father’s life and
often takes advantage of the fact that he can’t stand to see her cry..
A daddy's girl can never do anything wrong and is as innocent as the day is long..
I still remember..
those days when I was at my childhood..
Holding hands with daddy..made me felt so secure..
as if like there won't be anything that could harm me whenever my daddy was by my side..
Daddy really CARE for his CHILD..Once we are borned to this world,daddy started to get very worry of our future..
Our surviving in this dangerous world which full of obstacles..
Daddy could not 100% protect us..and all..he could do is to pray for us..
There's a poem with the title of "A PRAYER FOR MY DAUGHTER" by William Butler Yeats..
This poem really touched me..
It was all about a daddy's prayer and worry for her beloved daughter once she is borned to this world..
It was kinda long,so I didnt post it up here..
Try to see this poem at http://www.eliteskills.com/c/2559
I am sure you people would be touched with how worry of a father could be when we are borned to this world..
^^
As today is FATHER's DAY..
It is the perfect time to show our love to our daddy!
I am sure you guys have different sayings of your dad,right?
As for me,Daddy is always my hero!!!
You are the BEST DADDY to me!
I LOVE YOU DADDY!!
HAPPY FATHER's DAY!^^

=Dad,you're someone to look up to no matter how tall I've grown=

Beginning..

2008-06-14T11:52:00.002+08:00

Rising of the sun..
BEGINNING of a new day..
Semester 2 has just started..
which indicates..
a New Beginning
a New Hope
a New Experience
I have already gone through the so-called "sweet sixteen" life for about half year..
Time just passes in the blink of an eye..
Everything happened in semester 1 seem to be the past..
whatever happened in the past gave us experience and..
lead us to a tougher challenges in our journey called life..
No matter how badly I had falled in the past,I SHOULD try my best to stand up and continue my journey..
NEVER EVER look back and cry over split milk..
But..
LOOK BACK on the mistake I had done and try NOT to repeat it again..